Sunday, August 4, 2013

Oh Raymond Carver


Oh Raymond Carver

You and your divorces
And recovering alcoholics

Always calling the sheriff

Someone dying in a car
A car that keeps going
Through a building

Taking a few months
To see if things can be worked out

Horses heads in the fog outside

Children caught in the middle

Oh Raymond Carver

Saturday, August 3, 2013

Hamer on the Web


Lloyd Hamer on the Web
Up at the crack of dawn and down to the office to surf
the internet for hours without end.  
Jesus may come today, says one
particularly memorable page.
He will come back for us
and take us to his big home page in the sky
The page offers a bit of insight
into Jesus' thoughts as he hung between two thieves.
The dramatic scene is animated right before your eyes
as the Lord and Savior writhes in pain
and has his now historic conversation
with the thief on the right.
"This day thou shalt be with me in Paradise",
says Jesus in his best Marlon Brando voice.
It was the twenty first century,
Beginning badly as it did
Lloyd Hamer was born after bitnet became
The internet in the eighties
technology was on the throne,
Jesus worked now only behind the scenes
Lloyd’s little northern family was just hoping
to be able to keep up with it all,
no delusions that it was going to perfect their lives
or replace their faith in the New Testament.
Lloyd Hamer was so named
because his parents had an ironic sense of things
and they liked the way it rhymed
with the country pianist’s name, Floyd Cramer.
They had no way of knowing their son
would become a famous pianist himself
and that he would travel the world,
playing before auditoriums filled with loyal fans,
who yelled for more when he was done.
His style a blend of Joplin (Scott),
John (Elton), and Lewis (Jerry Lee).
Sometimes the music would get so tasty
he would begin to sing lyrics made up a few days before,
and the audience would turn delirious.
The music was rapturously pastoral and American.
Reminiscent of riding across the heartland
on a trainful of boozers and gamblers
who alternated between celebrating
the birth of the savior and mourning the death of a president,
That would be as close as you might come
to the level of emotion without actually being there.
If you walked in during the middle of a set,
you might not understand immediately
the raucous reaction of the audience,
but once you had been there a few minutes,
your synapses, dendrites, axons, and so on
would begin to groove to the melodies and
there was no siren on earth that could draw you away.
Lloyd’s concerts were sent in streaming
Video to local computers…
Lloyd was not a tall man, in fact
he was only 5 feet 8 in his street shoes,
but he could make a grand piano live up to its name,
with his own compositions, or sometimes
renditions of the works of others.
Meanwhile back home in Duluth, Minnesota,
George and Ethel Hamer would wait in the snow
for another recording he had released and
his visits which came less frequently
as the years went by.
Emails, clips and video calls
They did not know it, but they were destined
to live well into the twenty first century
and they were going to see some things
that the loving parents of a musical genius
should never be forced to go through.
The country they loved and the one he traveled
were worlds apart.
In the world they had known,
you should be sincere and not sarcastic,
successful and not stressed out,
and if worldly, not folorn.
But back then they had not had their MTV.
Lloyd's first video included a couple patterned after them,
almost to the point of the old lady and man
in front of the barn with the pitch fork,
but not quite.
Most of it was shot in Georgia,
a state where they had never been,
and had no desire to be.
The state where Roosevelt had died
and a few other things had happened,
like Jimmy Carter.
They lived vicariously and electronically through Lloyd,
although as he began to stay away,
call less often and write almost never,
they talked about the weather,
about the Twins, the Timberwolves and the Vikings.
You should sit down for a few minutes
with them sometimes
and say the name Lloyd
and watch their faces light up.
“Lloyd lives in a different world”
They like to say

Sunday, July 28, 2013

4 pm phone call


She asked him to watch her purse
Went to the bathroom
And did not return right away

He sent a lady to check on her
He said her name was Evelyn
The lady returned and said
Evelyn was sobbing

George left a tip and walked out
Into the high desert sun
He carried a Belk sack
They had been shopping

He repeated the words
Screw her under his breath
As he walked to the valet station

He had seen through her
She was going to break up with him
That was why she wanted to have lunch
But she had lost her nerve

His car was brought around
He smelled rubber
The young man had loved the Lotus
He did not tip him
But he did not scold him either
No more confrontations right now

George made the tires sing himself
As he left the parking lot
He weaved through traffic
And out to the freeway

He was halfway to Vegas
Driving at over 100 mph
Before he called her apartment

He wanted to leave a message
Rita her roommate
Was the voice on the machine

This message is for Evelyn
I know why you went to the bathroom
I am ready for whatever you say
I am a big boy, you know

Don’t treat me with gloves
Break it to me straight
I’m heading to Vegas
I’ll call at exactly 4 tomorrow
If you want to talk
Be at home then
And I’ll hear you out

He laid down the phone
And floored it again
His speed rose to 180

Damn women anyway
Why were they necessary?
He drove at top speed
The remaining 65 miles

His vigilance at staying on the road
Kept him from thinking of her
He had selected Leonard Cohen
From his playlist
And turned it up loud
But Cohen’s attempt at depth
Began to wear thin
So he had turned it off
And listened to the
Throaty engine

In the Four Seasons
He took a long shower
And saw himself in the mirror
As he came out of the steam
Big bags under his eyes
Blue pockets of unrest

The TV was on 54
When he turned it on
Before he could change it
Some evangelist shouted
God wants you to be happy!
You never knew
What might be on the TV

Down he went
In the channels
Nothing caught his eye
The Dodgers and Giants
Sunday night game
John Miller speculating

How many current Yankees
Would make the Hall of Fame
Joe Morgan concluded none would
Forget baseball

What about E channel?
Nothing but Sex on Sunset Strip
Not too exciting
Since the strip was just down below him
He picked up the phone
And asked for shows and times
In his hotel

Then he made up his mind
At four p.m. tomorrow
He would be
On a plane
Or a boat
But he would not be
On the phone

Monday, July 15, 2013

Two Cool Jerks and a Health Nut Walk Into a Hospital


Try to stop me if you don’t want to hear this one

Two cool jerks and a health nut walk into a hospital
One of the cool jerks says to the others
Can you believe the size of this place?

Yes I can, says the health nut
Given the poor diet most people eat
I wonder that it’s not even bigger

So, says one of the cool jerks
You will never get sick, right?

The health nut replied:
I did not say that, I said…

But the second cool jerk interrupted

No, you were saying people get sick
Because they do not eat properly
You eat properly, therefore
You will not get sick

Okay, said the health nut
Yes, I probably will not get sick as often

Well, said one of the cool jerks
When I am admitted to this hospital
I want to be sick
I don’t ever want to be lying in one of these things
Dying of nothing.

Ha Ha Ha, said the other cool jerk.

The health nut shook his head.

Thursday, July 11, 2013

The Dr. Together



We went to the Dr. together
Not one supporting the other
Both being seen
Technically my appointment
Was a half hour before yours
But they called our names
Paul and Tang-a
Incorrectly
You mumbled, they’re not here
Who wants to be weighed first?
I did, warning her
My clothes weigh five pounds
I registered 145
I whisper to you
I warned her
We walk by the height
Ruler
And as we are seated
I say, I guess you are assuming
Our heights have not changed
Instead of saying yes,
She said something I’ve forgotten
She read from her computer
Our numbers from before
From January for you
From September for me
Your glucose was one number better
Than mine, but you are medicated
She took your BP and it was low
Lower than mine
She wanted to know
If you usually ran low
You said no
And that you had been getting dizzy
Not something you had told me
My pulse was 48
She wanted to know
If my rate was usually low
I said I run marathons and stuff
You grimaced at that
Pretending to care if I saw you
Your pulse was almost as slow as mine
You whispered something like
I run too
She said she could use the old numbers
But the NP said no, she needed blood
I was glad to show off my veins
You began to worry
They needed blood for my prostate
She joked you had no prostate
You said something like,
It’s a well-kept secret
I suggested they might do you first
And let you get to work
She wanted to know if we
Needed notes to take to our boss
I said, no I don’t work until…
You interrupted and mumbled
He does not work
And I said until tonight
I was going to say until my
Class tonight
But I gave up
She drew mine first
No problem
And then I told her you
Had almost cried before
When they gouged you in vain
As she felt your arm
I leaned against the wall
And turned my head
She got it on the first try
I thought you might pull it out
From joy
She measured our waists
Gave me a script for Mobic
Gave you a reduced BP med
Because of your secret
Dizzy spells
She went to ask the Dr.
What to do
And came back and said
The Dr. said hi
You said, tell her
We said hi, too.
They decided to send me to PT
For my back pain
You got reduced meds
We checked out
You getting your six-month
Appointment
Out in the hot morning sun
We told one another to drive
Carefully
And we went our separate ways
Me to Walmart
You to work
Can you believe it?
We went to the Dr.
Together

Monday, April 1, 2013

It's hard to gesticulate

I jerked my head
To tell you which way to go
And when you mocked me
I barked:
It’s hard to gesticulate
With your hands full

Laughing Uncontrollably


She almost hit me with the bathroom door
And you could not stop laughing
We giggled too
Watching you keep going
Your face turning red
You not trying to stop
The way you usually would
Me knowing behind your laugh
Was a force she and I could not know
Perhaps something to do with me
An explosion I had caused
From times I had been unkind
Or days you had wanted to laugh
But had to hobble around the library
Getting people off porn sites
Or making ID pictures
Of people with funny names
Things laughing at
Would be frowned on
It’s me and you still
And her
The three of us
Full of reasons to love
Wanting so much
To say how we feel
Unable to control laughter
Any more than we can
The tears